I was told hence i became

inspired by: Jessie j- be true to who you are

I lack confidence, I lack  confidence because I was told I couldn't fly, I lack confidence because  I was told that the only place I will find confidence and be heard was in my own silence.

I lack confidence because the people I confided in, told me I couldn't do it.
They told me I was too much of everything, too loud, too quite, too ambitious, too ugly.
I was told that ;you  have big thighs, big bum, big eyes, a big nose but I was never told I had big dreams.

I wasn't told that my wings were strong enough to help me fly. I lack confidence because I allowed myself to lack confidence, I allowed myself to respond to the voices whispered in my big ears, I allowed myself to take time and listen,

I allowed myself to use my slowly wounded mind to analyse what was said to me.
I lacked confidence because my mind allowed the words to sink deep till I lost the tiny bits of the woman in me.

I will gain confidence coz I allow myself to swore, to thrive, to shut down the heart stabbing words pointed at me, I will gain confidence because I understand that  my identity is not driven by human perception, I will gain confidence because my mind allows me to filter the Brocken words from souls torn apart, destructed by the confusion of the universe in the fast lane. It is trough understanding my identity, my character, my personality and my voice. I gained confidence.